from where I am

listening to the music that we liked

with the school on the other side

and the kids

would come home

with our friends on the outside

in some other place somewhere else

but I was good here.

in the shade, licked up

where I had it made.

I would bring toxic drinks down to the pool

and no one knew.

How big this world is, now that it's no longer quite all mine

I have this kind of thing about me

that doesn't feel quite at home without deck-chairs

and the sun in my ears

again -

nodding off

feeling very far from where I am now